Thursday, October 12th, 2006...11:53 pm
Happy
For the first time in a long time, I am actively loving what I am doing in my life. It is such a refreshing change to be able to tell people that I am actively happy when they ask me how I am. That I am deeply content with the ways in which I spend my hours and days. The satisfaction came on slowly. It had been absent for so long that at first I didn’t recognize it, simply noticing the slight erosion of my discomfort. Then suddenly, about a week ago, I recognized it for what it was. General, unlocalized joy. A sensation of learning and growth. Mental and emotional movement. I am so grateful that I chose to change my life and go back to school rather than continue to sit behind computers that contained work that held no interest for me. My bravery makes me giddy on a daily basis.
5 Comments
October 13th, 2006 at 1:26 am
Computers are our friends.
October 13th, 2006 at 12:19 pm
That is terribly fantastic. Good for you!
October 13th, 2006 at 7:44 pm
YAY!!! glad things are working out!
October 14th, 2006 at 9:51 am
WoW! I am happy that you got to that point so quickly. I wasn’t able to get there until February of my first year of gread school—after the anxiety of 1st semester reviews and finding my way wifh my artwork. Enjoy it as much as you can while you are in school!
October 16th, 2006 at 10:04 pm
I had this moment myself about a year ago, about a week after getting laid off from a job I no longer enjoyed. I found myself driving home, grinning like an idiot. I realized it was because I was free!
To echo others, I’m glad you’re in a good place right now, too!
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