For the last couple of months, I’ve been thinking about going to Portland for a Subud gathering held the weekend before Thanksgiving. When I mentioned that I was pondering this possibility to my mom, she hopefully suggested that I stay for the entire week. It was an appealing idea since I haven’t had [...]
This afternoon, I settled down on the living room couch with a book, prepared to spend a peaceful hour by myself, doing nothing but reading. About ten minutes into this time, my roommate walked into the room. He wasn’t whistling, or talking on the phone or even walking loudly. And yet I was instantly irritated, [...]
Last night I wished fervently for a instantaneous transportation device that could take me from Philadelphia to Portland, OR in the time it would take to walk down a flight of stairs. My parents spent the late afternoon and early evening picnicking at La Tourelle Falls, a smallish water fall about a half hour [...]
I spent Friday night at a retreat center in West Chester. In the middle of the night I woke to the sounds made by throaty rumbles of thunder and demanding raindrops. Each lightening strike filled my room with brightness, and seemed close enough that even in my through the fog of sleep, I figured it [...]
I sat on a bench this afternoon for about fifteen minutes with my eyes closed feeling a little sad and down. I was trying to find that place inside of myself where I could be okay with not being okay*. Sitting there, trying to breathe deeply both emotionally and physically, I noticed as [...]
I spent a big chunk of Saturday alone in my apartment. In the beginning I really enjoyed the solitude, sleeping late, making coffee when I got up and reading the newspaper in my pajamas, on the couch. As the day progressed, I got increasingly restless and uncomfortable in my skin. I couldn’t [...]
I got an email from my boss today, which punctured the tenuous joy of my vacation and sent me spiraling downward. I’ve been holding onto the edge of okayness for a while, and in the 30 seconds it took me to read her email, I lost my grip altogether. It wasn’t actually anything [...]
At 5:15 pm this afternoon I was wrapping up my day, closing applications and straightening my desk for the morning, when I took one more glance at my personal email. My friend Cindy had emailed me saying, “What are you doing for dinner? Sushi?????? :).” With no set plans for the [...]
Right now the scent of banana bread* is traveling from my oven to where I sit at my computer. A moment ago I listened to the quiet, deeply satisfying gurgle of hot water pouring from the kettle into my mug.
I’ve spent the evening alone and I’ve journeyed through a variety of states of being [...]
Lately I’ve been inspired to stick my toe back into the world of internet dating. As with many of my generation, I am not a novice when it comes to meeting people online. I found the first guy I ever really loved via match.com, so I have a certain fondness for the medium. [...]
