Right at the moment I’m a little bit tapped out when it comes to writing. I’ve been posting like crazy over on Slashfood and Green Daily this week and working on my thesis to boot (however, the light at the end of the tunnel is in sight). This is one of those nights that, had I not made a commitment to do NaBloPoMo, I’d be skipping out on a post entirely.
However, since I’m here, I might say something of value. And here it is. I’ve been dealing with lots of change lately (although change has been fairly constant in my life over the last few years, predictable and yet totally unnerving all in the same instant). My life is changing drastically in that I’m nearly done with school and I’m figuring out how to be a grown up again. I’m settling into the idea that I will be able to support myself with brain power and hard work. A big part of making that happen for me is literally working on changing my mind in order to bring my thoughts into line with the reality I want to see. I realize that everyone has different levels of tolerance for the whole “manifest your reality” thing, but it’s something I embrace on a very basic level. How can things (good and bad) happen in your life if don’t actually believe that they are possible?
Each day, when I sit down at my computer to work, I try to spend some time noticing my thoughts. At first it’s hard to even pay attention, but it has gotten easier for me. When I start to feel worn down or defeated, I stop and notice what my interior monologue is doing. I shake my head to clear whatever message is running on the screen behind my eyes, take a deep breath and choose a different thought stream. And thus change my mind.